Usually the Lord enables me to complete a video teaching on the subject of the week. I ask for forgiveness for not doing so this week. I have posted one that I think hits this subject perfectly.
In saying that, here’s what is going on with me. The Lord is taking me through a refiners fire. One that is so hot, I have to say I almost quit and gave up. One that has been so intense it has turned everything upside down in my life. In the last 10 days I have felt so lost, so weak and I actually have felt removed from God’s protection and guidance. As crazy as it sounds, this started when I began the teaching on fear. I have been out of prison 6 months now and I have wavered from what I told God I would do, I have focused on the money aspect of my book, I have neglected feeding off the Word of God and therefore have dishonored Him. I was on my face yesterday morning and the Lord manifested Himself to me and spoke – Mark 4:19 and then Isaiah 1:21-26. Mark 4:19 says “And the cares of this world, and the deceitfulness of riches, and the desires of other things entering in, choke the word and it becomes unfruitful.” That is exactly what I have been doing. Then, in Isaiah it says v21- How the faithful city has become a harlot! It was full of justice; Righteousness lodged in it, But now murderers. (I haven’t loved my neighbor as I should) v22 – Your silver has become dross, Your wine mixed with water (my message has become diluted) v26 – “I will turn My hand against you, And thoroughly purge away your dross, (take me through a FIRE that will burn off that dross) I will restore your judges as at the first, and your counselors as at the beginning (bring back wisdom and knowledge) Afterward you shall be called the city of righteousness, the faithful city.”
Through His grace and mercy He told me what He was going to do. Men, please know that NO MATTER THE BATTLE OR STRUGGLES we go through (as soldiers in HIS army) HE IS WITH US. As lost as I have felt these past days, it has caused me to search for Him even stronger, cry out to Him even LOUDER, drawn me closer to Him. So in closing, please realize that we all go through struggles but as Men of God – THE TASKS AHEAD OF US ARE NEVER AS GREAT AS THE POWER BEHIND US!
THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOUR GRACE, MERCY AND PATIENCE WITH ME THROUGH THIS FIRE, FORGIVE ME FOR FAILING YOU. FILL ME WITH YOUR HOLY SPIRIT AND PROVIDE ME WITH YOUR KNOWLEDGE, GUIDANCE AND WISDOM AND I HUMBLY ASK THAT YOU USE ME AS A VESSEL TO CONTINUE TO TAKE GROUND FOR YOUR MIGHTY KINGDOM.